So what you doing this afternoon? Did you eat a decent lunch? I think you've lost too much weight what are you down to 130 pounds or less? You probably look like a walking skeleton I really wish you would eat better and hopefully the melatonin will help you sleep better you think too much and you can't shut your mind off at night and you keep replaying scenarios over and over in your mind and you really need to stop. I so wish I could help you but I can't you have to go through this all on your own but you've learned so much and this is making you a better person believe it or not. Your future it's so bright you have no idea what's ahead for you but I can tell you it's going to make you very very happy and you're gonna be happy that you've gone through this hell and come out the other side. I wish I could show you what's on the other side but I can't I can only tell you something wonderful awaits you you just have to wade through the shit recovering from a divorce. Knowing how much you hurt I wish Irina would come around and give you a second chance. I can feel your pain believe it or not and it's tearing me apart as well and I cry for you I really do and I just can't stand knowing how much you hurt it just kills me. I don't know why we came in each others lives but we have an undeniable connection and all I wanna do is protect you and guard you from harm. This sounds strange I'm sure but I feel so damn protective of you and I don't want anybody hurting you ever and I don't want anybody ever using you or manipulating you. What scares me is now that you're single you may eventually fall for a woman that only sees you as a money pit. Yes one day you are going to date and you're going to want love in your life again I know that sounds impossible but one day you will. No I do not think you're stupid it's just when we fall in love we are blind we do not see what is in front of us but everybody else can but we don't believe them because we think they're jealous or some bullshit excuse. Just know I would never betray you or sell you out and that you can take to the bank and draw interest on.