Depression is a terrible thing and being clinically depressed is the worst. I know that you're in that hole of darkness but it could be so much worse. And you say how could it be so much worse? Let me tell you a little story;

There was this girl That worked at the steel mill and she was the only girl electrician so she worked among men and those men harassed her daily and made her life hell. Every day she came to work it would be a dick written in her locker or remarks of some sort, her tools would be messed with, or lunch stolen, she was called a kinds of names all day and she's constantly harassed. Her life was hell and she dreaded going to work every day and she didn't enjoy her time off work because she dreaded going back. She became so depressed that she attempted suicide and ended up in the hospital. She was clinically depressed and it took a lot of therapy medication to save this woman's life.

So you see my dear everyone falls into the hole unexpectedly when something devastating happens.

You're like an old motorcycle that I have the kickstart two get going. I'm just hoping that you would listening to me one of these times and take care of your health. Life is hard on all of us but you don't care about all of us you only care about yourself right now I don't blame you. But you have to care about yourself because I care about you and your family cares. Yeah sure some of them might care only for your money but the majority love you for who you are. Don't you want to be around to see your first granddaughter? Because one of your children is going to have a girl but the first grandchild will be a boy. Don't you want to be around to watch them grow up? The greatest thing in the world is watching your grandchild grow up and call you abuelo? There's no greater gift and spoiling your grandchild it's gonna take you a long time to recover it's gonna take you almost two years to recover so is this the way you wanna live for the next year and a half? Please please Siegel therapy and medication to help you get through this I'm begging you and I don't beg unless I'm on the verge of an orgasm and somebody stalls when I'm on the edge then I'll beg.